Shane Michael Martin Sr.

I had a dream you came to me and asked me to forgive you,

   I asked you why, for it is I that need forgiven.

I wanted you so much, need you even more,

   I could not hold on hard enough.

I still have you in the kids,

   And in my heart.

But baby what I would do,

   To hold you in my arms.

I knew all along I would lose you to soon,

   I just prayed it would be longer then I got.

I love you baby for ever more.

 

HEy baby, I miss you so much. Here it is almost 3 in the morning and what am I doing. Sitting here wishing for that one more dday. Cryin my eyes out and hoping the kids don't hear me and I wake the whole house.

 

God I thought by now it would get easier. Why does it still hurt like it was yesterday? I miss you so much honey please come back I would give up everything for one more day with you.

 

Its like every where I look I see some thing that reminds me of you and itstead of being able to be happy that i can remember I am sad cause I want my one more day.

 

I love you so much baby. I miss my eskimo kisses, my puppy eyes. I even miss our fighting. I will wash every dish in the house if you come back to us. I love you honey. Please send me a sign something anything I miss you and need you more now then ever. You got me like no one else ever did. You left just when it was getting good.

 

I will always love you. I will raise the kids as we planned and I promise I will make them into adults you will be proud of.

 

I on the other hand am just making it through this min to hope for the next to be better. Some day I will live for the hour but baby steps.

 

ILOVEYOUILOVEYOU

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOOXOX

Always & forever yours

Hey honey,

           I was told with time this would get easier. Its been almost a year since I lost you. But its getting harder everyday. The closer that day comes to me its the worst I feel. I miss you so much honey. I can close my eyes and its as if you were still here. Then when I open them I have to relive it all over again.

            I miss you as much now as that first day I lost you. Actually its more now. That day I was in shock and now I have to face living with out you. I try to put on a brave ace and pretend all is good and I am moving on. But I am broken inside and want you back oh so much.

            We were to grow old together and you left me way to soon. Those last few days with you were the best we ever had. I love you so much. I thank you for giving me the best part of you to keep me going for ever our kids.

           They are doing good Shane even got a goal today at his game I know you were cheeering him on from above. Taylor well at least she went after the ball today thats better then nothing. Btittani well shes my sweetheart walking ad in to everything.

            Honey I know you are still helping me from above but boy do i wish you were here with me now. I love you Honey.....

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

 

 

 

Not a day goes by that I don't cry,
    Not a day that I do not ask why?
You were so young,
    We had so much more to do.
The question now is how do I get on with out you,
    I am tryin my best and sayin hell with the rest.
I am listening to the wind,
    For you to tell me what to do.
I know you are gone,
     I laid you to rest 
But with me you will always be,
     For it is you and me for eternity. 
I will love you for always and for ever love your wife
Tammi

Shane,  I've known you since you were a baby. Although sometimes many years would pass in-between our seeing each other, you were always the same. You always had to have those souped-up cars (remember the BIG rock) to bad you just didn't know how to drive them (he he).  I have to say though I didn't like the BEAR HUGS (they hurt) or when you would just pick me up and throw me over your shoulder. You just laughed, never understanding your strength. I knew you would never hurt me but, it did. You were just a big lovable bear. You ARE a very special person and I know you are here with us now watching over everything. I know God has a very good reason for taking you. I just wish I knew why. Someday we will all know and we'll all be as proud of you then as we all are now. Love you and Miss you