I miss you so much everyday. I still cant believe you're gone. I wish I knew why you had to leave so soon. I know you're watching over us. This past October I had my first NYC experience with tammi and the kids. What a trip. two of our busses broke down . We had to run 8 blocks to catch the bias ride home in time. I know you were there with us through it all. As I sit here, I'm trying to remember memories we had together. I remember you throwing me into the pool at dad's. I remember getting scared while horseback riding and you trying to calm me down. I remember some things from when you and tammi would babysit Tj and me. I wish I could remember more things. I wish we had more time together but I know we will be seeing each other again someday. Until the. I'll be making more memories with your kids and trying to remember more of us. I miss you and love you so much. Keep watching over us big brother. 

I wish you are here.so we could go to sandeigo,lego world,disneyland and then we could go to disneyworld

Shane I have some choices i need to make for the kids and I. I know you will be there guiding me and you will show me the right choice. I am so glad that even though I can not hold you I know you are near. That you for being my rock on earth and my angel from above.

 

I love you as much now as I ever did if not more. Why is it that you don't know what you have till you lose it.

 

i know you are proud of where the kids and I are in life and that we made it this far baby. I love you. i felt you here tonight and when Brittani ent tto you I know you were there. Baby what I would do for 1 more night with you. But as the song goes I would need more time I know I would.

 

I can not change what happened and I know its not my fault anymore. I just wish everyone else would see this and stop blaming me. You were the voice of reason and now you are gone baby please guide me through this and show me your light. I need to know i will do the right thing when the time comes.

 

I know my most important job is to protect the kids I will do that. Even if it means doing the hardest thing I will have to do in life after burying you.

 

I love you and thank you for all you gave me and keep giving me every day.

 

Tammi (your one and only)

 

HAPPY FATHERS DAY WE MISS YOU

 

 

Here it is on mother's day. I wish you were here. Honey I miss you so much. I love the way you never forgot a date..

 

I wish I had that now. I wish I had you now.

 

Its just not the same with out you. The kids miss you so much.

 

 

I felt you here last night.

 I could even smell you.

 

It was such a great feeling,

To be near you again.

 

I got out all your pictures,

You always mad fun of me for taking so many.

 

Funny thing is I have so many of you,

From birth up.

 

I see you in the kids so much

boy that helps and hurts all at the same time.

 

Imiss you honey,

I thought we had a life time.

 

I love you baby.

 

wait for me at the gates and be my angel till then.

come to me in my dreams like only you can.

 

Love you

LUAFWAHSP